Hello, somewhat (but mostly not) sunny August. Thanks for not burning us out yet, although I won't complain if you decide to get a little warmer from here on out. I'm just saying...



I've been having a summerish summer, what with endless family stuff at the beginning and endless friend stuff for the last several weeks. Barbaques, card nights, hikes, girl sleepovers, river days, party crashing, road trips- the usual. These things smell and taste and look like summer, and it's got this addictive, sedative feeling about it that makes me want to freeze everything right here and never grow a day older.



On the other hand, I'm never out of borring stuff that has to get done, none of which ever seems to propell me forward. So maybe I'm getting my wish and being stuck in time. But it almost makes me want to go BACK in time to when everything was exciting and interesting in-the-moment, when my whole mind belonged to the present instead of worrying and wondering about what it all meant and weather or not I was making a difference or a lasting mark on my surroundings.



But here I am, living and breathing and fully ME. I can't be any less me then I am right now, I don't think. Constantly working on changing, reforming, and pushing that me to be more, I have at least I've arrived at the point where I know who I am. I may one day be more comfortable with strangers, more confident in my own shoes, more sure of what I want, less stuck on getting my way, less emotional, less reactive, less hard-nosed and up-tight.