Life is so strange, how you drift around between people-groups and places. You would think we humans would need something consistent, something solid to keep our feet on the whole way, but we don't- somehow we're perfectly fine letting go of old things and clinging to new ones. We do it all the time, with the rapid inconsistency of a pin-ball machine. One tiny thing can change our minds about something we loved dearly the day before, and we put it behind us like food gone bad.
I've been thinking about all the different phases in my life, from running around recklessly full of imagination in Colorado to right now, staring at this empty echoy thing called my future and wondering, what point does any of it have, really? Why did I have to go through all of those experinces to land myself here, only to find that the most likely course will have me leaving it all behind, all the people and places and interests that guided me off and on till now?
Blah. Too much deep thinking. Vacation was, well, interesting. Family vacations are always hit and miss- I've had great ones and not-so-great ones. This fell more under the second chatagory, not that it didn't have it's moments. I wrote a continuing blog post about it, kind of like a really borring documentary, in my notebook, which I will post if I ever decide to finish typing it up. For now I'm wrapping up my work day... I feel like it should be raining outside, but it's actually perfectly sunny! Weird feeling.
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